Missing my Mama!

    
She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.  Proverbs 31:26-27

Tomorrow is February 18th. Just another day for most. For me it is the anniversary of my mama's death. I have been thinking of her a lot lately. My sweet little mama. For those who have lost their moms you know exactly how I feel.

 I find myself talking to my mom throughout the day, asking for her help. Sometimes I ask her to pray for me or my loved ones. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I can see myself transforming into her. She is the one that taught me how to be strong and caring. She taught me about humility. She is the humblest person I have ever known. I miss her terribly. I can still hear her cute little voice saying "Hi Glory!" Sometimes I feel she is still around watching over me and my loved ones. That would be just like her, always more concerned about everyone but herself.

When I was a kid I remember my mama making three meals a day for us. We would even come home for lunch in grade school. She never seemed to get any rest. She did without things for herself. She stayed home nearly all of the time, going very few places. I remember once a kid at school asking if I had a mom because they had never seen her. She worked so hard taking care of us kids and trying to run a household. As you know, men of the generation of my dad were not much help in the home back then. My dad worked hard to provide for us and was a caring man, but he didn't do anything to help my mom in the house.

My mama will be on my mind tomorrow for sure! I will remember all of the wonderful things about her and I will remember the way she suffered before she died. She was in so much pain. I think one of the last things I said to her was be strong, it will be OK. I told her that Christ our Lord suffered so much for her and now she was suffering like him. I told her to give her suffering up to Him and that He wouldn't give her anything she couldn't handle. He would be with her and wouldn't leave her side. I knew that she believed and trusted in Our Lord's merciful love.

The ache that I felt when my mom left is something that never completely goes away. It is easier as time passes and I am able to focus more on all of the beauty she brought to my life. Like in Proverbs 31 my mama was filled with wisdom and kindness, She taught me so much and she worked hard to protect and raise her children. For all that you were and all that you did for me, thank you mama!