Friday, December 5, 2014

The Season of Waiting

   

  I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!
Psalm 27:13-14

It's Advent, the season of waiting. I had always though of this season as a time we await the birth of Our Lord Jesus. Of course Jesus was born over two thousand years ago, so is baby Jesus coming. I know that Jesus is coming again at the end of time. That is what I'm waiting for. I'm waiting for His return.

Advent is a time of great joy. It is a time when I focus more on Our Lord not unlike Lent. There is a joy and happiness all around.us. I am praying more and I find myself singing beautiful songs to The Lord. Even if I don't have a great voice, I give Christmas songs my best effort for Him. I am happy! I'm happy because in spite of my shortcomings I know that Our Father desires me! He loves me! He loves and desires you too!

This Advent I hope that you will spend more time with Our Lord, loving Him, and trying to please Him. Remember that He is coming again and prepare yourself to meet Him. Will He be happy with what you have done in your life?  Are you living the golden rule, and helping your fellow man? Ask yourself "How can I live a more holy life, one that will please Him?" When your life is over and the world passes away that is all that will matter.

Enjoy Advent. Let it be a time filled with faith, hope, and charity. As Psalm 27:13-14 says "Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!"

Saturday, November 29, 2014

What Are You Thankful For?

And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labor, it is the gift of God.  -   Ecclesiastes 3:13

Thanksgiving day came and went in the shadow of Christmas preparations. Hopefully you took time to give thanks to Our Lord for the abundance in your life. I made a list of the top ten things that I am thankful for. Maybe you can make a list and then praise and thank God for them.

1.  The Holy Trinity and Our glorious Lord's love for me!
2.  My wonderful God loving husband, I am so blessed to have such an amazing love.
3.  My children, they are each so different and the loves of my life.
4,  My grandchildren, they give me pure joy and fill my heart like nothing else.
5.  My parents. They gave my life and taught me humility.
6.  My extended family and friends, they are so supportive and loving.
7.  My health. You don't appreciate it until you understand what it is to lose it.
8.  The great abundance God's given me; my home, job, food, clothing, everyday comforts
     that so many don't have.
9.  This great nation that I live in and for all of my freedoms.
10.The earth and all of God's glorious creation!

Your's in Christ,
gg

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Thanks to our Veterans and Active Military!

"…Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."

 Joshua 1:9

Today is Veterans Day. I am so thankful for those that have served and are currently serving in our military. They that have sacrificed so much to insure our freedom and protect others across the world. They are selfless and courageous, They are heroes!
 
Many in my family have served in the military, sacrificing so much for this great nation. My son is currently serving in the Navy. I am so proud of him! He is brave beyond words and has a deep appreciation for this country we live in. I am so thankful to have a son that is dedicated and strong. A son that has grown to be such a good man giving so much of himself for the good of others.

On days like today take the time to give thanks to God for the brave men and women that have served our country. Offer up a prayer for those currently serving. A prayer of protection and divine guidance.

Dear Lord,

Please let your heavenly angels watch over all of the men and women serving in our military. Protect them from the dangers and evil that they may encounter. Guide them in their actions. Grant them strength to endure, courage, and peace. Let us never forget them and please Lord always keep them and their loved ones in the palm of your hands.

Amen!

Monday, November 10, 2014

Busyness of Life!


So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.  ~ 1 Corinthians 10:31

It's as though I dropped off the face of the earth! No, not so, her I am! The business of life has kept me from making time to blog. I'm a terrible blogger I know! I do it only when I feel moved to do so. I am not a slave to social media or technology. I'm one of those that likes experiencing life in real time with real people. Old fashioned? Maybe, but I like it that way.

So what have I been doing? My daughter got married a little over a month ago and It was beautiful wedding. She was a stunning bride and we have beautiful memories that will last a life time. I am also taking a class studying the Bible. We meet once a week and just finished Genesis. We are now  studying Exodus. It's an amazing four year program that will encompass the entire bible.

Once a week I also help with my church's RCIA program. There are about 16 candidates, so excited to  learn all they can about the Catholic Church. I am equally excited for them.

Anyway, my life is full, sometimes stressful, but always full of love and joy. I may be a little busy but I do it for the glory of God!  I give thanks and praise to our Lord for the blessings of health, family, faith, love, and so much more. I pray that your life be filled with the same!

Yours in Christ,
g

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Twenty Eight Years and Crazy About Him!


Then the Lord God said, "It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him." ... So the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man and while he slept took one of his ribs and closed up its place with flesh. And the rib that the Lord God had taken from the man he made into a woman and brought her to the man. Then the man said, "This at last is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called woman, because she was taken out of Man." Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.

Genesis 2:18, 21-24

My amazing husband and I just celebrated our 28th anniversary. I am so honored to be married to this wonderful man who knows what it is to truly love with your whole heart and soul. I can't help but love him back in the same way. As a young woman I never imagined that love could be as wonderful as it has been for Ernie and me.

My parents were salt of the earth people that worked so hard to provide and care for twelve children. What I never really saw was affection and tenderness. I know that they were of a generation that didn't express their emotions, but I wish so much I could have witnessed expressions of love between them.

My brother Ruben, who was their caretaker in their final years told us of the most tender moment he ever witnessed between our parents. In my dad's final year of life, he was in the hospital. We knew that he had chosen to stop treatment for his heart condition and that he would pass away, it was only a matter of time. They released him to go home with the knowledge that he only had so much time. When my brother brought him home and my dad saw my mom, they went straight into each others arms and wept. That was the love that I wish they would have expressed growing up. This was such an emotional moment for them and for my brother who had never seen them demonstrate that kind of affection. The thought of that still brings tears to my eyes.

I, on the other hand have had the great blessing of being married to a very openly affectionate man. A man that is God loving, protective, generous, caring, and romantic. He has not a selfish bone in his body. He is the whole package. My kids will never have to wonder about our relationship. They have always been blessed with witnessing our love for one another. A love that is unconditional and an extension of the love that Our loving Father in heaven has for us.

I pray that our children always cherish the covenant of marriage as Ernie and I have. In their own marriages they never forget that they become one body one spirit. Marriage and family is an extension of the relationship with the Father, Son, and The Holy Spirit. I pray that they understand that God joins them together to bring forth life and above all, to love! I know that with a passion to love and serve Our Lord they will have marraiges as beautiful and blessed as Ernie and I have!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Don't Worry, Be Thankful, and Trust in God!

" Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or abut your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life?" - Matthew 6:25-27

 
It's been almost two and a half years since my bone marrow stem cell transplant. It seems like my chemo and radiation treatment are a blur. Though they were tremendously difficult for me and my family, I don't think of those days very often. I have had the great blessing of being able to live in the present for the most part. When I do look back it's briefly and I try only to remember all of the love and beauty of those days. Like the scripture above  I try always to remember that worrying will add nothing to my life. I trust in God, He loves me, and has a plan for me!

I received great care during my treatment and I am still receiving wonderful care from my oncologist and his staff. I am so thankful that I only see him once every three months now. Those visits include blood draws to keep an eye on my blood counts and chemistry. As time goes on my visits will be stretched out. At three years I will see him every six months. Thanks Be to God I am doing amazingly well and feel fabulous! My energy, strength, and stamina are pretty darn terrific!
 
I am so thankful for the strides that have been made in the treatment and care of blood cancer patients. My family and I are about to walk in the Leukemia and Lymphoma Light the Night fundraiser. This will be our third year doing so. It's the least that we can do to help raise funds to help further the research and care of those like me needing, hoping, and praying for a cure for blood cancer.
 
If you can make a donation to Team GG, we would be ever so grateful. No donation is too small! I am so thankful to Our Father God for my good health, remission, and for my wonderful life. I pray for love and good health to you and your loved ones. Click on the link below to find Team GG's fundraising page.
 
 
Yours in Christ, GG
 
 
 
 

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

What Are You Reading This Summer?

    
Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God and that you are not your own? For you have been purchased at a price. Therefore, glorify God in your body......Corinthians 6:19-20

It's July and being a teacher, this is the heart of summer break. I've already done most of the things that I set out to do at the beginning of break and can now enjoy some restful time. I find myself reading several books right now. As most of you know the electronic readers make it way to easy to immerse yourself in too many books at once. Funny though, two of the books I am reading are actually paperback!

What am I reading? Well, I am trying to finish The Book Thief which is a fantastic story that takes place in Nazi Germany and is narrated by the Grimm Reaper himself. It's an amazing story of life and death, love, survival, words and books! It was also made into a beautiful movie, released earlier this year if you prefer watching the movie to reading.  I highly recommend doing both.

I am also reading the second book of Call the Midwife. If you haven't seen the PBS series based on the books I highly recommend it. The books are written by a midwife that worked on the east end of London during the late 1950's and 1960's. They are wonderful stories that will make you laugh, cry, and just flat out be amazed by the circumstances in which people lived and died during that era.

I am almost done reading Saint Monica and the Power of Persistent Prayer. She is one of my go to Saints. You have those don't you? I pray to her asking for her intersession daily. She is the mother of one of our greatest saints, Saint Augustine. If you don't know the story of Augustine, he was quite the sinner, living a life that caused his mother a great deal of sorrow.Yet, her faith was so strong she never stopped praying for his conversion. The power of her prayer helped Augustine to convert and he became one of the most revered saints of all time. Totally a must read for mothers.

Finally, I am reading Theology of the Body Explained by Christopher West. I just started this one and have been completely blown away in the little that I have read. Light bulbs are going off in my head and I already am gaining an understanding of the awesomeness of the human person made in God's image and likeness. If you have never heard of the theology of the body, in a nutshell, it's the teaching of God's awesome plan for the body and sexuality. They are teachings that Pope John Paul II now Saint John Paul gave to us over the course 135 Wednesday addresses.

I could not do justice to describing the little that I have learned from Theology of the Body at this point. Let me just say this. There is a loss of spirituality rooted in the philosophy of the separation between body and soul, and this is posing a great threat to life and civilization. Society has broken away from the truth of what man and woman really are. They therefore cannot comprehend the real meaning of the gift of one another in marriage, true love, fatherhood, motherhood, and the true beauty of procreation.  I am wildly excited about getting deeper into this book. I find myself feeling the Holy Spirit move me as I am reading! I hope to share with you more as time goes by.

I hope that you are finding something to read this summer that will move you or teach you. Hopefully both. Until my next entry good reading and God Bless!

Yours in Christ,
gg

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Hobby Lobby, Marriage, and Contraception!!!


"Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh."  ~  Genesis 2:24

"Before I formed you in the womb I know you, before you were born I set you apart." ~  Jeremiah 1:5

I was very happy to hear the Supreme Court's decision in the Hobby Lobby case this morning. The court decided 5-4 that "closely held" for profit corporations have a right to religiously object to government regulations, in this case the contraceptive mandate of the Affordable Care Act, "OBAMA Care". Being a practicing Catholic woman, I can feel the government breathing down my neck and the necks of every religious person in this country. Attempting once more to squash religious freedom. This time they lose!

So, the Affordable Care Act, OBAMA Care mandate that nonexempt employers are generally required to provide coverage for the 20 contraceptive methods approved by the FDA. These methods include the four that may prevent an already fertilized egg from developing any further by inhibiting its attachment to the uterus (implantation). Religious employers, such as churches are exempt from this mandate.

The four contraceptive methods include two types of "morning after pills, and two types of intrauterine devices or IUD's.

Why am I so happy? The decision on the Hobby Lobby Case is having people look more deeply into the truth of contraception. Well, as I look back on my years as a young woman, I was Catholic without a true understanding of the depth and beauty of Catholic teachings on life and contraception. It was in my late twenties when I started listening to Catholic Family Radio. That was when I began to have my eyes slowly open up. In fact, I soaked up everything that I didn't know about my faith, and it was a lot! Up until that point I had made many mistakes in terms of respecting and understanding God's will for me and the sacredness of my body and of life.

In time I began to understand what the sacred covenant of marriage is and why I should have respected and cherished chastity before marriage, and why artificial contraception is so wrong. I gained an understanding of the Church's teaching on birth control. Unfortunately, this knowledge wasn't openly talked about in the church as I was growing up, and to a large degree, it still isn't. It really took radio programs with Catholic theologians and apologists, to instill in me a desire to learn more. Since then, I have learned a ton about my faith and the teachings of the church, and I'm still learning!

Okay, so growing up, my mom always told me to be good. That was it! I knew that she meant not to compromise my chastity, but she never said why. So  here's what I have to say as about sex in marriage and why contraception is wrong. I didn't get to be 53 without learning a thing or two!
The Church teaches us that sex is a gift from God, intended for couples to enjoy inside the sacrament of marriage and marriage only. There are two things that must be present with every sexual act. The first is that the act must be "procreative"( meaning open to life) and it must also be unitive ( the actual physical union of a husband and wife). Anything outside of this diminishes its beauty, intent, and deliberately takes God's Will out of it.

Every act must be open to life. That's why barrier protection (condoms and spermicides), withdrawal, and all forms of hormonal contraception and abortifacient drugs are forbidden. That is why surrogacy, and related acts, invitro fertilization and some fertility practices are forbidden by the Catholic Church. This is not to say that the Church is against helping you figure out how to overcome infertility. In fact, check out this awesome new practice, NaPro Technology (Natural Procreative Technology) to learn about why the Church endorses this fertility treatment. NaPro has had almost an 80% success rate, much higher than the 20-30% success rate of average fertility treatment, while also upholding the dignity of the woman's body and using her natural self to solve her infertility. (http://www.naprotechnology.com). Also, direct sterilization is not allowed, and we know this is because we have taken measures to say that we will not be open to God's plan for us to have children, and have taken the procreation part of the sexual act out.

With artificial birth control, couples engage in a unitive act that is frustrated by a contraceptive. They are unable to give themselves to one another fully, saying I accept all that you are with your fertility as a gift given to me by God. By engaging in barrier methods or artificial birth control you are saying, "I take you, but not your fertility" and the chance that you are upholding one another's dignity as a whole person is compromised. Hormonal birth control "the pill" is a Level 1 Carcinogen (cancer causing drug) that is deemed by the World Health Organization on the same level as asbestos. Also artificial birth control places a woman's body in a natural state of pregnancy, so it is possible that if she becomes pregnant (fertilized egg) her body already thinks she is pregnant and does not permit that egg to implant. Now that I say the Church doesn't permit these forms of birth control you might be saying, this is madness! How can I plan my family in a way that works? People who use birth control often say that natural birth spacing and artificial contraception are the same. They are NOT!

Well the Church does allow married couples to abstain from having sex during the fertile time of a woman's cycle, the most natural way to plan a family. In fact if you look at birth rates prior to the 20th century before artificial birth control and formula became rampant, most children were naturally spaced about 2 years, which is aligned to lactation (breastfeeding) amenorrhea,  a woman's natural way to space children and give her body a break. So don't fear, without barrier methods and artificial birth control there are other ways to plan a family. The most effective of which is Natural Family Planning, a scientifically proven method where a couple shows self-restraint and abstinence during a possible fertile time and engages in union the rest of her cycle.  It is a prayerful decision by a couple to have self-restraint and the interesting part is that couples who engage in NFP are less likely to have divorce than couples who use other forms of artificial birth control. Now we are seeing why the Church endorses NFP over contraception!

There are several birth regulation methods approved by the Church such as Natural Family Planning, the Ovulation Method, Creighton Model , and the Billings method. These methods can also help couples to conceive. I encourage you to contact someone at your church who can direct you to learning more about these methods. Better yet check out this link to learn from the Couple to Couple League which is an awesome partner to the Church for teaching Natural Family Planning: http://www.ccli.org.

It's a little ironic that Americans are so health conscious, eating only organic foods, exercising, using products free from chemicals or unwanted additives. Yet, young girls and women don't think twice about putting dangerous and or carcinogenic products into their body. For what? For the "freedom to have sex whenever or with whomever they please." This is not an act that honors God and the sacred body He gave us.

So why does this all matter?

Well this particular Supreme Court Case that ruled in favor of Hobby Lobby sets an important precedent for our country, one of which shows that religious liberty is an important part of our constitution that we need to uphold regardless of executive governmental demands.

Another is the recognition of the conversation that needs to be held by our people in our communities about these particular 4 forms of devastating and damaging forms of artificial birth control. They are put into the category of an abortifacient, a drug that can cause an abortion (early term). How? The hormones in the hormonal IUD work to prevent typically ovulation but could work to prevent implantation. The morning after pill, Plan B or Ella, is an extremely high dosage of the same hormone in the hormonal contraceptive "the pill", which works to prevent ovulation, but if you read up on the studies of it or take a look at the back of a box it says that it prevents implantation of a fertilized egg. The copper IUD, perhaps the most dangerous birth control, sometimes works to actually cause an abortion itself if you become pregnant with it in. Both IUDs are there to make the uterus a hostile environment, and have hormones in them that are toxic to the sperm. Why do we care about these four? Because once conception occurs,t the egg is fertilized, it is a life, a person! An innocent life that has a unique purpose, dignity, and deserves the same rights as each of us humans. God our Father siad "Before I formed you in the womb I know you, before you were born I set you apart." Jeremiah 1:5  Isn't that awesome! So women, lets take charge of our bodies, embrace our fertility, and find a less invasive way to plan our families. One that will strengthen our marriages!

Thank you to the Green Family, owners of Hobby Lobby, for standing for life and against abortifacient drugs that are dangerous to women. I think it makes sense that the majority of attorneys for Hobby Lobby were women, because they saw this as common sense legislation for our country, that will protect women and religious freedom!

Following the teaching of the Catholic Church brings only unity and a holiness to the marital relationship. It honors and protects life, while fostering a caring loving sacredness to the marital relationship. It honors our Lord God!

I encourage you to look deeper into the truth of artificial contraception and the teachings of the Catholic Church. Until next time, you are in my prayers.

Yours in Christ,  gg

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Happy Birthday to Me!


For through wisdom your days will be many and years will be added to your life. Proverbs 9:11

March 8th is my birthday! I like to think of it as my second birthday. It's not often that we can start our birthdays over.Two years ago I received a stem cell bone marrow transplant. By the grace of God my brother Bobby was a match and it was through his stem cells that I was given new life. Hence I started counting the anniversary date as my new birthday.

This year as I look back the whole experience; chemo, radiation, the transplant, and my healing process. the whole experience seems almost surreal. It's like a dream, until I start to remember how difficult it was not just for me but for all of my loved ones that cared for and supported me. I remember the neuropathy which made it so difficult for me to walk, and all of the pain I felt in my legs and feet when the bed sheets touched them. I remember shaking so much that it was even difficult to eat a bowl of soup, or not being able to dress myself. There were so many challenges. They were some very tough times for all of us. In spite of those difficult times we found so much joy during those times. We learned to appreciate each day we were blessed with.

Two years later I am almost like I was before I got leukemia. I am strong and joyful and ever so normal. I recently joined a gym. I am seriously working out for the first time in well over two years.  I did something totally out of character for me, I am working with a personal trainer. The workouts are challenging and I am learning new ways to exercise that I would not have done on my own. It's funny but I have only worked out with him for a week and already I feel better. I hope that I will regain strength and rebuild the muscle that I lost.

I have been back to my old job teaching for two months now and that has been quite an adjustment. It to has added to my sense of normalcy. I am finally feeling like I am in a groove and being productive. 

Life is good! It's great! I am so thankful to be 2! I give thanks and praise to Our Lord for my new healthy life. For all of the love and joy that I have in my life. I am so blessed to have gained two beautiful grandsons in the last year. I have the most supportive and caring family that got me to where I am now. They did it with grace and so lovingly. Now that I am back to a new kind of normal I pray that I will hear God's voice, and respond eagerly to his command. Praise be to God for every blessing that I have been given! Praise be to God for the years that have been added to my life! Oh yeah, and Happy Birthday to Me!

Monday, March 3, 2014

Once Again it's Lent!

Like obedient children, do not act in compliance with the desires of your former ignorance but, as he who called you is holy, be holy yourselves in every aspect of your conduct, for it is written, "Be holy because I am holy."     Peter 1:14-16

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday. I always look forward to lent. It is a time when I focus more intently on Our Lord and His suffering. A time when I focus on His love for me. Me, so unworthy, so pitiful a human being! I tend to look at myself in the worst way, very aware of my sinful nature. I don't know if that is a bad thing to do. All I know is that I am painfully aware of my shortcomings. Aware of how much I want to be better for My Lord. I want so much to please Him.

Lent allows me to cleanse myself once again and to start anew. I am going to do all of the things that good Catholics do. I will fast, pray, and do alms giving. I pray that Christ Our Lord will lead me where he will, and that I will follow no matter what the cost. I love Him passionately and want to be the most faithful servant. That is a tall order, one which I fail at regularly. Yet, I know that no matter what He loves me, so much, that He carried my sins with him upon the cross. He gives me hope for forgiveness and everlasting life with Him.

These days society has such as focus on career, money, and success, yet we do not seek to live the holy life that God calls us to live. I know that I have had my head turned throughout my life. The deceiver knows just how to get us to turn away from holiness in moments of weakness. But, the good news is we have an opportunity to start fresh this Lent. We have a chance to turn back to Our Lord. He is calling us to love, forgive, to do corporal and spiritual works of mercy; to live the beatitudes. He desires us and wants us to desire Him!

I pray that you all have the most blessed Lent. I pray that you seek Our Lord's love and presence in your life, and that it might transform you. Seek not the fleeting pleasures of this world, but those of that which is to come. This world will pass away ever so quickly and we will stand before Our Lord to give an account for our life. Let it be a life lived for Him not for worldly pleasures! I want to start anew this Lent, to become the best Christian that I can be. I hope that you do too! Please pray for me this Lenten season, I will be praying for you!

Monday, February 17, 2014

Missing my Mama!

    
She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.  Proverbs 31:26-27

Tomorrow is February 18th. Just another day for most. For me it is the anniversary of my mama's death. I have been thinking of her a lot lately. My sweet little mama. For those who have lost their moms you know exactly how I feel.

 I find myself talking to my mom throughout the day, asking for her help. Sometimes I ask her to pray for me or my loved ones. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I can see myself transforming into her. She is the one that taught me how to be strong and caring. She taught me about humility. She is the humblest person I have ever known. I miss her terribly. I can still hear her cute little voice saying "Hi Glory!" Sometimes I feel she is still around watching over me and my loved ones. That would be just like her, always more concerned about everyone but herself.

When I was a kid I remember my mama making three meals a day for us. We would even come home for lunch in grade school. She never seemed to get any rest. She did without things for herself. She stayed home nearly all of the time, going very few places. I remember once a kid at school asking if I had a mom because they had never seen her. She worked so hard taking care of us kids and trying to run a household. As you know, men of the generation of my dad were not much help in the home back then. My dad worked hard to provide for us and was a caring man, but he didn't do anything to help my mom in the house.

My mama will be on my mind tomorrow for sure! I will remember all of the wonderful things about her and I will remember the way she suffered before she died. She was in so much pain. I think one of the last things I said to her was be strong, it will be OK. I told her that Christ our Lord suffered so much for her and now she was suffering like him. I told her to give her suffering up to Him and that He wouldn't give her anything she couldn't handle. He would be with her and wouldn't leave her side. I knew that she believed and trusted in Our Lord's merciful love.

The ache that I felt when my mom left is something that never completely goes away. It is easier as time passes and I am able to focus more on all of the beauty she brought to my life. Like in Proverbs 31 my mama was filled with wisdom and kindness, She taught me so much and she worked hard to protect and raise her children. For all that you were and all that you did for me, thank you mama!

Saturday, January 25, 2014

A working woman again!

"Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord!" - Psalm 31:24

I find myself waking up at six in the morning getting ready to face teenagers in high school. Yes! I am back to work. It has been exhausting but fulfilling. I feel like I can focus on kids instead of me. For the last two years it seems like I have had to focus inward constantly. It feels good to put some focus on something as worthwhile as high schoo kids. It has been a little difficult to get back into a routine but I am so thankful to Our Lord, for giving me the energy and fulfillment that I have.

The staff at my school were so loving and caring while I was in my recovery phase. They still want to help and take care of  me. Although, some things have changed, I feel as though I was never gone from my job. I am very blessed in every facet of life.

I am nearing the second anniversary of my stem-cell bone marrow transplant. It will be two years March 8th. That has become my second birthday. Not many people get to have a second birthday. I plan to celebrate this extrodanary gift of life that day! Everyday that I have had since the transplant has been a wonder. I found my strenth in The Lord just like Psam 31 says "Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord." I have put all my hope and trust in Our Lord and I truly believe that He rewarded me.

 I will have another bone marrow biopsy in March and if it is good that will be my last one. I can't remember if that will be my 7th bone marrow biopsy. After four or five I stopped keeping track. Just for the record they are really not that bad, I even do mine without sedation. I like knowing that I can handle a little pain, it makes me feel strong and alive.

I like to think that I learned so much about myself and my journey through life to this point. Yet, I'm not sure what it is that God wants from me. Is it to be here for my kids and grand kids?  I never would have known the amazing bounty of love that I could feel for my precious grand babies. They have certainly changed me. Is it to continue to work with kids with disabilities? Is it to continue to be a partner and helpmate to my amazing husband? Is it all of those things and more? But wait! What's the more? I try to meditate in prayer asking God to show me to let me know what more I should be doing. I am like a kid, my mind too distracted to hear my Father. Maybe what HE has planned for me is just what I'm doing. Maybe I just need to do it better. I just don't know!

As I begin everyday I thank Our Father for the day and I ask Him to guide me and let me do His will. I ask him to let me be kind and compassionate and loving like He is. I hope that Our Lord will help me to see what more I should do for Him. I pray that He give me the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and the desire and passion to do it no matter what! Until I figure it out pray for me and I will pray for you!